i am so disappointed... so upset... so tired and so sorry....
had a super bad day.... its really
THAT BAD kx...
hAix.... had test (geo) in the morning.. n sumtink really bad happened.... dun wanna add in the details... was really damn sad lah... n thru'out the day it really spoiled the mood of the whole cls man!
but thank God... it was solved... mm...n i seriously hope it's ok in the end... please....
n.. the worse to come...
my lit teacher actuallly showed us our results that are accumulated for the past few tests together.. it will be taken into acccount for our promos.. LIT... all in all... i got like 27% lah... i m like wad the hell.. though somehow expected it... but still... u wldnt noe how to face it nevertheless... haix...
den nvm... the names are highlighted in
RED!!! those who did exeptionally un-well.... n most of all.. i have the lowest score in my class....
i dunno.. can feel droplets of tears forming in my eyes soon after.... i dun want to give up.. but it seems that the situation seems to b encouragin me to do so..... b4 u talk to me, console me, or juz comfort.. juz lemme talk... or vent u cls say....
i felt tt i m not reaping what i have sow..... i did all my Lit work lah.. i rread all my readings lah! some of my clsmate dint even do dem lor.... n did extra revision when i gt the time for LIT lahx.. n what i get????? is still these results..... i m so pissed wif myself.... i noe i aint suppose to feel tis way.. but i juz feel stupid u c.... never wld i imagine i wld get such results.. loweest in cls leh!!! i've never been there b4 lor.... i dunno..... dunno wad can i do... yah... i m supposed to look for teachers n ask dem wads my prob..... i dunno.. will it help???
i dun wan these tears to drop.... but they juz kip moving down my face... m i doing enuf?
talked to fren... n she said "pray to God"
i noe.... i did tt.... n i noe His plan is perfect n a lot a lot more principles i cld find to have more faith... but talk is cheap.... sumtimes u juz cldnt find it real to ur life until u constantly feels His love.... His presence... how ON FIRE u felt at one moment.. den at the next moment.. guess wad? u r back to the pessists u....
how can i not feel this way? its not wad i wan u noe? i kip telling myself positive things.... but somehow it jus fails when tis bcum a cliche n u feel that u no longer believe as much as u did before...
i jusst want to cry n shout out loud....
HELP ME MY LORD
dancing all night long _ *
7:13 PM
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